Tough Times

This is the time when I need strength more and more than any of the past times that were tough and testing. It seems that I have risked my whole career on this 'MYTH' called MBA. Economy may be in resession and I have nothing to do with all of the happenings going around as I am just an spectator as any other person on the road but the diffrence lies in the Impact. 

At my journey here at NMIMS, I learned a lot about life, people, business. I met a few great souls too. I donno why am I not able to sustain all this depression? I know, I am the only one who can give me strength but even then why am I seeking that strenghth in others. They may be good friends but they were not there before when I was in big soups. And they will not be there in future too. So, what are the reasons that I am not able to keep up. 

Again, I am finding myself alone between all of 'em. It really hearts. That's why I always avoided to be attached with people. Things which I thought will be giving me strength are proving to be my weaknesses. Donno why I am writing all this?

Probably its time to sit back and introspect again what actually I want from life.? Who is able to find ever. One can only try.

The flip side:

This post is going to be in deep contrast with my last post. That’s life after all, its paradoxical .

When in my life I will get some sense of the people. Again I was wrong to keep trust in few people around me. Will there be any end to such mistakes? I am not sure. But one thing is for sure that there is still to learn a lot in life and may be a full lifetime will not suffice for the same. Interesting thing is that some of them (people around) are too smart or they think they are. After everything is over they will ask again and again that too very innocently “Are you ok?” . Lolz . What the hell kind of creatures I am dealing with who can’t even keep their words. Yes, I am perfectly fine and will be even if all of them are not around. Well one of them told a very good thing that there is always a first time and yes I should take it, accept it and learn. But one thing I am happy about is that I have learnt enough from life not to be affected by things happening around or even havocs. Let it come its own way, I am ready for it and as always and I am happy with myself.

Now again I am on the same question “Who am I?”

 

feelings..

This is the time I am realizing that each one of has a lot of things inside, waiting to come out, may be waiting for their turn. Yeas I am going to talk about the recent sport fever at NMIMS, the Dandiya and the trip spree . Everyone wants to do everything and they do when they get any chance to do. This is the thing too amazing to me that the guy you may think as the “geekest of geek” can dance like monkeys on a volleyball court after a nice shot and can do bhangda on dandiya music,  or for that matter people come forward together holding hands to put a great show keeping aside all the assignments or the panic market situations happening around.  

The objective here is many folded, say - to relieve from stress, having some fun, some time pass, workout but the most important I think is again the “sense of achievement” of learning something new by doing it properly and making it the best shot. Making the best everywhere is the fundamental habit of all of us that’s why we are heading towards something great. Life will bring for sure many more situations in the form of competition, appraisal, presentation for VC funding on professional front. Also on personal front it will bring low days, anger and many more things. Probably this all what we are doing now, will help  to remember the “TRUE ME” and move forward with the same strength and drive we have now and also we will be able to pass it to others, who do or will matter for us.

This is the spirit which is there in each one of us and helps us to live and lead a happy, great, memorable and achieving life. I will name it a “Life of Significance”. The only thing lacking I can say is the sense of initiative or coordinating & that is totally ok as it brings a lot of responsibility and every one can’t commit the same. But even then if given a chance they can perform and that too beyond expectations. It reminds me some how the movie RDB.  Ending on the note that God give us many more such days and events to cherish.

Looking forward to the Sunday trip.

Cheeerrrzzzz 

Who am I.... ?????

Who m I?
Do I really know myself...?
Or.. some one in this whole world ..has any idea ... what for I am here?
I don't know.. Nor they..
So, there are some people I met at every moment of my life .
Yes, some said : They got me well and I also thought that they did so.. but Alas!! I was again alone..

Why?.. Will I ever get some people in life whom I can say they love whatever I do and more important they know "Why I do so?"
In this hope I am meeting each one coming in my contact with full open heart but I think every one doesn't appreciate that .. probably it's our nature not to be ok with a lot of happenings around...

But I think some times it becomes difficult to smile, to show that I am happy though I am probably not.
Every time it is becoming very difficult to respond with a smile.
Why should I wear a mask?
Can't I tell that "I hate you."
Can't I say " I don't give a Damn!!!!!"
Probably, I have some weaknesses...
I was not that weak some times back.
I think I want some things unwanted.
That's the paradoxical life I am carrying and trying to cope up with.
I know.. I will not be able to carry it much, so I will try to gather to try some strength and speak LOUD.....again and ... I will be true to My self...

My first Ever post...The truly Unforgettable..

20th Sep, 2008. One more formality got over by finishing the 4th trimester xams of my MBA. Hah.. wht a relief? Really , to get over with same unenjoyable process. As usual I finished the last paper first and left early. After having lots of laughs and jokes its time to go some place sit and do more bakar. The place was "Prithvi Cafe".  Seven creatures did a hell lot of time pass there having "cutting".

Now the best part begins to assemble at a place that is really unbeatable. Yeas, it was the top of a five floor building somewhere in Vile parle. We were at the water tank top that can only accomodate max 5-6 people. Now the CANS got opened and DJ no 1 (Deepak) started on his lappy with some great numbers suiting to the ambience- "Aadat","Yakeen","Metallica". 

The breeze, its so good that can't be compared. Even after 2 am, Kashid was second to this place. With a lot of discussions on the 4th trimester subjects, professors and other carieer related stuffs, first round of CANS got over. It was around 1130. Sanchu volunteered with Bedi to bring the 2nd lot (from fridge). Yupp, now the real discussions on wht not. It went on and on and again at 1230 the third round of CANS. These CANS are so amazing. Now the DJ No 2 (Sanchu) took over and really this on

e is amazing. Wht the gr8 collection of my all time favorite choices this guy has? Commedable job man... This was the time to play "kabhi kabhi","Dard e dil" and all that one can think of after 2-3 rounds. 

(Pic- L2R- Bedi, Deepak, Sanchu & ur own)

Its around 120 am now and Deepak has to sleep ? Why so early yaar. "Some1 has called in morning at 730." ch ch ch.. poor guy...Lolz

But we three are in full "spirits" so one more round was much needed to spend some more time at this amazing place. Now Me with Bedi on roads heading to the place which can help us at 130 am. (After all we are in Mumbai). Yupp, this was the time to try the new brand called PELON...We r back. This one is really Strong. Now the round of endless talks started about school, college, family, adventures, office life and wht not? Really Njoyyed each moment.

Who the hell was looking at watch, finally the laptop got over with its power to entertain us giving red. Also the drops of joy started from that black dense umbrella. Watch was now showing 330 am. So much we did and even loks so less. Finally decided to leave as Bedi ahs to do packing for 630 am train and in mean time had to finish some unenjoyable assignment of IMC.

This was one of the most unforgettable nightout in lyf. Really Deepak kept the promise to take us to an unbeatable place.

Waiting for another tyme to come...

Pune trip is also due